As I doodle in my sketchbook and scratch out idea after idea in frustration, I find that there’s something different in my approach to my work. Something’s missing that’s been there a good part of my life. For the first time in a long time, I feel happy. 

I’ve found that the reason why I used to create worlds with these characters to live in was to escape my own reality. Not that I had the most horrible life in the world, but as I grew up I was prone to depression in my teens. Growing up gives you more perspective. As the hormones clear up and your prefrontal cortex develops, you can look back on your life and come to grips with your disappointments, while also looking at the positive things that have happened in your life. Graduating college, getting married and being out on my own has allowed me to have the perspective to recognize these things. As for my art, inspiration is lacking…

Don’t get me wrong. I still love the process. Drawing and painting are so cathartic for me and put me in an almost zen-like state of mind. However, the drive to create is no longer there. I believe that being an artist is something I will always want to be, but now is a time of exploration for me. I’m going to be attending some open studio figure drawing classes once a week and keep my mind open for a new direction for my work. I hope you continue to follow me as I find my way.

velgaduere:

caffeinequeen-:

hetaliaislove:

captus-ganymede:

lolmonsters:

CAPTAIN AMERICA AS SLEEPING BEAUTY OMG. 

^

TONY AS KUZCO

Died at sleeping beauty. 

fuck I can’t.

I feel Loki would be more suited as Jafar

(Source: bartonesque, via hexwarrior)

drawnblog:

RIP Maurice Sendak

(via ayvanie)

Hello everyone!

Meet my new running buddy, Mal.

He loves running with me on the trail! He’s the perfect personal trainer. Can’t think of a more perfect buddy to help me out on my journey. I love him to bits and so happy to bring a dog back into my life again!

For my first 5K, I’ll be running the Trinity Prep 5K Run/Walk for Caitlin Downing on April 15. 40% of the proceeds go to helping the family with Caitlin’s medical bills. If you are in the Orlando area, you should come out and run, too! 

Now, to get my playlist setup on my iPhone for the big day…

safedefense:

Never look down on someone unless you’re helping him up.

(via hexwarrior)

As of today I am on Week 6, Day 3 of the Couch to 5K Program. I only have 3 more weeks to go on the program, and although I’m getting through it, I’m progressing a little slower than I’d like. Sometimes, I have to skip a week just because I’m so exhausted and dizzy that just getting through every day life things is a challenge. On these weeks, I give my body a pass and just remain determined to finish the program, no matter how long it takes. Despite remaining positive, this makes restarting the next week difficult sometimes. I can give into excuses much easier since I’ve broken my routine. Once again, dysautonomia adds a little monkey wrench into something that can be difficult for anyone. Though, the days I feel good and hit that runner’s high makes everything worth it.

In addition to running, I’m trying to take a stand on my other aspects of my health as well. Being a designer, I often am sitting in front of the computer for hours and hours out of the day. When I’m finished for the day, I’m often sapped of energy and it’s just difficult to suddenly have energy when returning home to cook dinner and get a workout in. I’m trying to get some more energy and find ways to keep my blood moving while at the office. I’ve taken to getting up and taking a brisk walk every once and while to make sure my blood pressure doesn’t drop too low. I’m also trying to to makeover my diet little by little by switching to higher quality, unprocessed foods. I’ll be posting my experiments and update my progress as time goes on.

I’ve found a Jillian Michaels podcast that’s keeping me motivated in my goals, and is just a wonderful resource for clean eating. Not only does the show deal with nutrition and fitness, but also provides almost a mini-therapy session and talks about how behavior and psychology affects the way you eat. I’m totally obsessed and it’s great to listen to an un-caricaturized Jillian being both vulnerable and bad-ass. 

For now, I am off to plan out my food the next week. Toodles!

Snapshots of a day at a lake. 

hexwarrior:

is he…. is he mid-barrel roll?

(Source: egyptologen)

forbiddenfruitcocktail:

(Source: living-sickness, via hexwarrior)